tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2006649500326109834.post8799819576112716164..comments2023-06-11T08:00:23.276-07:00Comments on From Infertility to 2 Amazing Little Boys, This is My Life.: Diary Entries from my Teenage Years: Contemplating SuicideBrandihttp://www.blogger.com/profile/02700381836723709672noreply@blogger.comBlogger3125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2006649500326109834.post-88215958705315741812011-06-01T11:33:54.113-07:002011-06-01T11:33:54.113-07:00***My blogger account is not letting me sign in, b...***My blogger account is not letting me sign in, but this is Brandi!***<br />Shel, I think I really started to comfort eat starting in college where food was so readily available in mass quantities or I could drive to go get it and I gained 30 pounds my first semester at college! And nowadays, yes, I think I comfort eat a lot. When I was younger, I chose bad foods too, but I didn't make a run to Starbucks or make a batch of cookies and eat half of them. I need to think of food simply as fuel for my body but I'm not quite there!<br /><br />Anonymous, I think most people that have suicidal thoughts are able to keep it from others pretty well. I definitely did not act like I was depressed. Anytime I hear parents now talk about their kids acting withdrawn or that they are fighting a lot, I always say, "Well what do you think about having them talk to a counselor?" I don't try to judge but I really do think a counselor would have been such a good idea back then. Even today, I should probably go see one because when I think back on my childhood, a lot of those memories still really hurt. I'm so sorry to hear about your brother.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2006649500326109834.post-35200565426070028232011-05-31T18:23:58.680-07:002011-05-31T18:23:58.680-07:00It's so sad to hear the pain you were in. My b...It's so sad to hear the pain you were in. My brother committed suicide and I had no idea at the time he had such thoughts. Thank you for sharing those extemely personal things with all of us. Your words help heal others, whether you know it or not. So many people keep these things to themselves.Anonymousnoreply@blogger.comtag:blogger.com,1999:blog-2006649500326109834.post-49810682739675669232011-05-31T14:55:46.231-07:002011-05-31T14:55:46.231-07:00Wow this is really powerful stuff to read and it m...Wow this is really powerful stuff to read and it makes me sad to think that you would be at such a low place you would contemplate such a thing. Brandi - you come across as such a confident, intelligent, beautiful person. I'm sorry those bullies made you feel that way!<br /><br />I understand why you feel the need to address your issues with weight. I too was a chubby kid but luckily did not suffer any bullying, however since the age of about 18 the weight has crept on but I truly believe PCOS may be a contributing factor. Do you feel like the heavier you got the more it made you comfort eat? I certainly feel that way now and really want to make a change. It is keeping the motivation going.<br /><br />Shel xShelhttps://www.blogger.com/profile/04535138195025400285noreply@blogger.com