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Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Next time, I want it to be fun, not stressful. Umm Okay?

Yes, that's what my husband said to me last night in bed when we were talking about when to TTC next time!  He said he didn't like having to have sex on cue, LMAO!  Well buddy, I didn't like it much either and you know what else I didn't like?  Multiple transvaginal ultrasounds, taking Clomid that turned me into a moody-sweaty-bitch, and dropping my pants so a nurse could stab me in the rear end with a needle. 

So to my DH, I'm really sorry it was so hard for me to tell you we HAD TO HAVE sex on a particular day, but I should forewarn you that it will probably be the SAME EXACT way next time:)

Just to make it clear,  I was not mad, I was laughing through our conversation and it made me realize just how affected he was by our infertility issues.  He went on to talk about how all of his friends were having "oops babies" while he was the one who actually WANTED to be a dad.  Oh trust me hubby, I completely understand. 

But I was honest and told him we would be monitored by my doctor who would follow my cycle and do what's necessary because the one lesson I learned from TTCing last time (the first 3 years that is), is that after about month 4 or 5 of just hoping it "just happens", sex becomes less fun and it's hard to put on a happy face when you are not pregnant month after month.  AND, I really feel that because women with PCOS are at an increased risk of miscarriage, I want my doctor monitoring me as much as possible.  I think after I told him that, he finally understood.

Does your husband/partner talk about his feelings towards infertility? 


  1. I just found your blog from your you tube channel. I also have PCOS...Had to do IVF and conceived my daughter. I ended up having her at 22 weeks and she did not make it. I am going to follow your blog. I do believe that there is a connection between metformin and pregnancy with woman who have PCOS. (I saw that on your last video)
    We have since adopted a baby. I have a blog as well to honor my daughter and our life with our son.
    We plan on ttc again, I just need more time, plus I just want to enjoy life with our son for a while.
    I was a lurker on your You Tube channel and you inspired me in the days after we buried our daughter. Thank you!

  2. I just read your blog and it's beautiful! Levi is incredibly cute and I'm so glad you are a mom and I'm so sorry that Eden was taken from you so quickly. I really liked your response to the lady who asked if Levi was your first. Thanks for telling me about your blog and we'll keep in touch!